I think i’m going insane
I hear voices sometimes
Like any other song i would’ve disguised
This in metaphors or subjectivity or rhymes
I’ve been like this for half my years
Frame the shame of it just behind my neck
I think i’m going insane
I hear voices at night
And i know it's easy to object
But it’s not like it’s a form of self respect
I hate that i’m not used to strangers or loud noises or crowds
I feel like i’ve had done something wrong somehow
People i knew used to unite against the establishment
They had crustpunk vibes and were so adamant about it
I wouldn’t be your girlfriend if you weren’t worth everything
And now instead of saying how i’m feeling
I give up on any contact and write some trash about meaning
So i think i’m going insane
Hello babe
I don’t wanna go insane
I don’t wanna be put in a mental ward
I don’t wanna be put alone and forgotten cause of my stupid hurt
I think i’m going insane
If i know whats best for my friends and for myself
I’ll sit down and shut my mouth and cut my bullshit now
Didn’t say a thing
I’ve tried offing myself 5 times
The fifth was last night
I almost bled out
It felt scary but alright
Like any other song i would’ve disguised
This in metaphors or subtext or rhymes
But i have to make it clear
I have to say what i mean, my dear
I have to make my decay subside
So i can be alright sometime
And it’s alright
If you are to die
Then you should know your life
Was the single best part of mine
Well the crowd got wild the second they thought she had escaped
They tried to call to find her but she didn’t have any other name
And when she came back scarred and exhausted, what could they say?
What else could they say?
I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me
When you said you’d support me, did you really?
I put off making things right with ian
And now he’s dead
I put off telling Ky i was suicidal
And now it’s just stuck in my head
I put off talking to Kade
And now he’s left
I put off going to Leesburg
And now I’m shredded again
I didn’t wanna fall in love
Until i loved somebody
But now I know you’re not going to love me
And I know I don’t care
There are times where I can’t care
I can’t care about anything in this world
([spoken:]You make an appointment to planned parenthood, and a therapist possibly depending where you live. If you're too young you'll need permission, you could probably easily forge a signature to proceed. It may not proceed smoothly just so you know, but that's normal for everyone. I really hope you get to follow who you are, and your parents mentality changes knowing your still their child)