(late one night i just forgot to breathe) Oh please, hear this song that I play for you I hope you’re the only person who hears it And only you And in my dreams you’re alive and you’re not going to leave Your mouth moves in mine and you still smell sweet The wreath of flowers hang round your head And I’ll love you forever and I can just stay in bed My GPS broke So this must be the place And you’re standing right beside me While the fires burst as far as we can see And tell your mother we’re going home We’ve been destroyed And tell your brother that you’re not going to be alone As we try out everything we possibly can I want you to be my man Now get up Let’s try out everything you want to do Burst into action, I will too Promise me you’ll go inside once I do I don’t want you hanging around Please don’t fight, please don’t argue I’m just looking out for you Oh please, hear this song that I play for you I hope you’re the only person who hears it And only you And I hope that your offer was honest And if things go awry I’ll have someone to stand beside And you’ve told me What you’re going through And being honest I know exactly what you do And you pretend not to I wish it didn’t bother me God, I wanna see What you’re like after drinking And how I remember you A skinny scar-covered boy My two-headed boy All floating in glass I hear you groan and moan As you sleep next to me And that’s all in the past We gotta go back We gotta go back Promise me you’ll go inside once I do I don’t want you hanging around Please don’t fight, please don’t argue I’m just looking out for you My heart is breaking cause I'll never see you again I know they say it gets better And now I'm drinking like you used to and my head spins Thinking about your skin And your yellow-toothed grin And boy, you wear yours like a brand new skin And though I stopped drinking And you still do I hope you keep true, true Even though I’m too scared to And if things go sour I’ll tell you within the hour I talk to you when you’re asleep I try to tell you everything And you scream and you cry I yell “i don’t want you to die!” And get your head outta the covers You can throw me away if thats what you wanna do okay? Just let me do my job Let me do my job, dear And I can still have some place to stay And we can spend all day Looking at each other It was december, we were listening to Mother Mother Promise me you’ll go inside once I do I don’t want you hanging around Please don’t fight, please don’t argue I’m just looking out for you 17-year old dream Lies in his bedroom Gave me his hat and a pair of nikes Lyrics of Cute Thing and Bodys changed To include his name I’ve given him my heart And if only he knew it You and me are connected We have been since we held hands A small gesture But enough to keep my perpetual blush going When I leave this scene Or leave my friends early What’re they doing without me? I talk when you’re asleep I tell you everything “Let me do my job, let me do my job” And i imagine, somehow, you can hear me I won’t always need you like this I’m not always falling to pieces Don’t worry Don’t worry babe Don’t worry I’m sorry And I miss you I hope you miss me too Ah, miss you I miss you Miss you I hope you miss me too Don’t worry babe I just miss you We gotta go back We gotta go back We gotta go back

Promise me you’ll go inside once I do I don’t want you hanging around Please don’t fight, please don’t argue I’m just looking out for you Sweet matthew, I know I can’t speak the words you say back But when we hold each other in the nighttime i feel like i’m having a heart attack And when you hold my hand onto yours to feel you as mine I feel as if everything’ll be alright And you my dear are hopeful of my years but you only come at night Though you’re with me in shirts and jeans in daytime Darling kade let our love lay in night My mother used to say i’ve got a sentimental brain And though i don’t agree i can see why When i wear your jacket i feel your presence with me And the sunrise stays as far as i can see And once in my brain i’ve got a solid place to say We will have to say goodbye my love

Such a drag, it’s such a drag to be dragged around, around by the hair dragged everywhere, it’s such a drag I use the sleeves of my sweater To cover my face Every little problem i can’t erase Do you want to dance? First, lock the door Oh, watching the right side Of some sort of war She said to you, “I want to do this for a living But how would I” And as she packed her things You told her a line Oh, can’t get connected Can’t take a message Phone’s on silent And became violent Such a drag, it’s such a drag to be dragged around, around by the hair dragged everywhere, it’s such a drag Diamond heart Get up and start Burst into action Find a pencil and write And i did, and i tried But it’s okay, and it’s alright You can try we can try Again and again And once we’re done Once we can We’ll be alright It’ll be alright Try to think yourself Into a trance Lock the door Let’s dance Oh, babe Somewhere down the line We won’t be alone anymore Oh, babe Hear these words I speak Or don’t, please Such a drag, it’s such a drag to be dragged around, around by the hair dragged everywhere, it’s such a drag I wish i could show you my Obsessive excessive long-form Songs of love and hope But then again What would you think If you knew they were about you? Nowhere to turn Nowhere to turn Somewhere down the line We won’t be alone anymore

I miss you And i don’t know what else to say I miss you And i hope you’re okay All the words i tried to say were wrong Every sentence took too long So it’s fine you didn’t listen And I know that once you leave You’ll never notice I was missing And that’s alright This is fine I would’ve preferred if there was some time Where we got to be seen as we were in our minds You’re an angel with your golden halo Black hair and stick-n-poke pitchfork How have you been? How have you been? I miss you And i don’t know what else to say I miss you And i hope you’re okay I remember you You had hair, you had tattoos You had hats and you were a ruse I am young i am naive Tell me a lie like “what if i am” Tell me a lie like that that i will believe Some nights I like to wear your flannel jacket And back in the Library Park We kissed in the dark Like you would even remember it Don’t hold your breath Will toledo lied to me Because effectively You and me will be alone Some nights i like to wear your flannel jacket Because it smells like you Sometimes i wear your flannel jacket Because it smells like liquor too It reminds me of the time the wind blew Through your hair and we traded drinks on the stairs Your hand dropped from the aisle And held mine I could see myself clearly for the first time in a while So we whiled away the time You’re an angel with your golden halo Black hair and stick-n-poke pitchfork How have you been? How have you been? I miss you And i don’t know what else to say I miss you And i hope you’re okay I used to wear your flannel jacket Now i just have it Now it’s just sitting on the bedstand Now i’ll keep it to put it in your hand One idyllic night Back in library pond You’ll hold me so long And we can wear your flannel jacket It’s been some 10 months Since we first met I don’t know if You’re my boyfriend yet You’re an angel with your golden halo Black hair and stick-n-poke pitchfork How have you been? How have you been? I miss you And i don’t know what else to say I miss you And i hope you’re okay

I think i’m going insane I hear voices sometimes Like any other song i would’ve disguised This in metaphors or subjectivity or rhymes I’ve been like this for half my years Frame the shame of it just behind my neck I think i’m going insane I hear voices at night And i know it's easy to object But it’s not like it’s a form of self respect I hate that i’m not used to strangers or loud noises or crowds I feel like i’ve had done something wrong somehow People i knew used to unite against the establishment They had crustpunk vibes and were so adamant about it I wouldn’t be your girlfriend if you weren’t worth everything And now instead of saying how i’m feeling I give up on any contact and write some trash about meaning So i think i’m going insane Hello babe I don’t wanna go insane I don’t wanna be put in a mental ward I don’t wanna be put alone and forgotten cause of my stupid hurt I think i’m going insane If i know whats best for my friends and for myself I’ll sit down and shut my mouth and cut my bullshit now Didn’t say a thing I’ve tried offing myself 5 times The fifth was last night I almost bled out It felt scary but alright Like any other song i would’ve disguised This in metaphors or subtext or rhymes But i have to make it clear I have to say what i mean, my dear I have to make my decay subside So i can be alright sometime And it’s alright If you are to die Then you should know your life Was the single best part of mine Well the crowd got wild the second they thought she had escaped They tried to call to find her but she didn’t have any other name And when she came back scarred and exhausted, what could they say? What else could they say? I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When you said you’d support me, did you really? I put off making things right with ian And now he’s dead I put off telling Ky i was suicidal And now it’s just stuck in my head I put off talking to Kade And now he’s left I put off going to Leesburg And now I’m shredded again I didn’t wanna fall in love Until i loved somebody But now I know you’re not going to love me And I know I don’t care There are times where I can’t care I can’t care about anything in this world ([spoken:]You make an appointment to planned parenthood, and a therapist possibly depending where you live. If you're too young you'll need permission, you could probably easily forge a signature to proceed. It may not proceed smoothly just so you know, but that's normal for everyone. I really hope you get to follow who you are, and your parents mentality changes knowing your still their child)

All you ever talk about are your problems All you ever talk about are how I should solve them All you ever do is talk about how all your friends are getting remarried When all my friends are getting tired And all my friends are getting drunk Do you regret anything you did? Do you regret giving me scars I hate you I hate you I hate you x9 All you ever talked about were your problems I hope you never solve them All you ever talked about was how all your friends were getting remarried I hope you don’t have friends anymore When all my friends hold my hand You don’t regret anything you did You don’t regret breaking that bottle on me And it’s alright because I hate you I hate you I hate you I don’t think it was fair of you to ask me all those questions Like i’d ever know the answer I just take my medicine and hope for the best I just put my earbuds in and ignore the rest I hate you I hate you I hate you And now every time i see a bottle It reminds me of the days Tell me “you’ll be fine” Tell me “you’re an asshole, i’m kind” What you are makes me sick, an overhyped plaintiff They say “hurt an artist and watch the masterpiece you create” But you hurt me and i’ve never made a fucking masterpiece [spoken/yelled] and you told me-you called me a boy in a dress, you called me a fag, don’t you understand anything? I don’t think it’s fair for you to be asking me these questions like I'd ever know the answer, and now- I thought i could leave it--leave it to you too, and now everyone thinks i’m a freak cause i never talk, and i just- I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! X9

Road lines, run lines Run lines on your arms Bloodlines bring you harm Small scars on your chest I saw them And it’s alright if you want to stay anyway It’s hard to sleep with shit going on upstairs Well, that’s alright enough i think its fair I don’t know what you want me to say They don’t love you, and that’s just the way it is And it’s alright enough But what they did to you with endless shouting From the stairs That's not alright enough it's not fair And it's okay if you want to sleep in the bed I’ll stay awake in case you need anything The soft sob from the room next to mine I’ll leave your shoes on the floor and aligned I think you should take a walk But do you even know how? I’m sorry to push you I don’t talk aloud You deserve better than you got Someone has to say it cause it’s true I don’t know what you want me to say He doesn’t love you And that’s just the way it is And now you’re getting too old for this shit You’re throwing fits and acting like a kid It’s not like it makes you any better And it’s getting hotter You try and drink some water The sheets are covered in sweat The sheets are covered in dread I tried I tried and tried And stayed in your room next to mine Take the bed, rest your head And take a walk and keep on trying Do you remember before and you cried and called me sobbing I don’t know what you want me to say I love you and that’s just the way it is

I feel so haunted I feel so haunted I swear last time we talked You turned me on so much And last time we talked you You couldn’t sing But now our voice is so promising I can’t wait until i have any courage To ask you to be a feature A song i wrote makes me think of somebody I met in my dreams “I see the world in petals Well you did something bad And you’re not allowed to go outside at night anymore I only wanted you to be different Well there’s a nice quiet place just down the street You and i should meet” I get 11 hours of sleep a night because I don’t wanna be awake My two crustpunk friends always ask For an easier way I don’t need nobody’s man I got my hopes up again Trying to stick around another year Try to stay sober but still drink a lot of beer I can only be awake at night For the last hours of my life I write songs that embarrass me And tell too much about my life I told you that i’d love you I told you we’d be fine I told you keep all true true I told you i’ll be kind Kade, all your love was wasted Someday you’ll wonder who the hell was I? Nobody knows how close i came how much i still think about those days Nobody knows how close i came Walking most nights, i still Think about it think about it Think about him Let me do my job I don’t need nobody’s man I got my hopes up again I don’t need nobody’s man I’m just a kid I don’t have to live like this I’m just a kid I don’t need this shit And now most nights i lay awake I fell in love with a boy He looks like will toledo I fell in love with a boy But I’ll never tell him And I’ll lay awake in my old bunk bed Well i could never be strong nor could i ever be free Well god never asked for the truth But you owe that to me And i never asked for the truth but you owe that to me

We’re stuck in our bodies Stuck in our minds You’re stuck in your body Stuck in your mind I’m stuck in this body And this mind For the rest of my life Because the bodies We are stuck in Release all of the punishment We should switch our bodies So we could be Who we need to be Who we oughta be Where we ought to be, then So when the fight is over And we are back to normal And I won’t have to commit myself completely The rest of my short, short life We will live anxious And die more anxious And I know it was tough To admit you’re going rough Keep your transgressions just to us Keep your transgressions, rough Keep yourself up at night So i can lie to you about not liking guys I’m sorry I had to tell you that But we were getting dangerously close When you told me you loved me Makes me wanna be who I wanna be Because there’s binders dropped on your floor And cut-up sweatshirts taped to your door Falsely extending the length of songs To make it seem like I care at all Do me a favor If we’re stuck on the road Never ask me to play guitar While you drive Don’t let me go You might feel alone And don’t let go of your heart You know I love your art But I never liked That One anyways And what happened to you? We slept in the beds of your best friends And watched the sunset from the broken attic window Watching your hair and your coat and the breaking threads I’m happy enough living like library kids Like one-eyed dogs and living like this I can’t turn this thing off, it keeps following me And one day you’ll back and say you did the best that you could And you’ll be wrong You’re always wrong To show the greenlight dye The better part of me Lost in the night And then in the morning pretending to sleep You sat beside me and said that I looked sweet You walked back from your room I could’ve told you just how close I came I could’ve told you all about those days I could’ve but I’m so goddamn afraid But one perfect night every night is not enough And justin vernon said “emma isn’t a person Just a place, that you can’t escape” And to me, you’re that place and i Sometimes wish i’ll never escape But it’s crucial to blot any sign i have any feelings So when he asks “how are you” to me I won’t have to answer honestly And okay I want your help your love anyway Jenny never showed me nothing but kindness But by the age of 19 she was throwing fits She didn’t know that I’d be around And to this day I can still hear the sound Of her voice again For years I hadn’t had a clue And suddenly I could look through Jenny’s eyes again Jenny was a friend Jenny never showed me nothing but kindness But by the age of 20 she slit her wrists And now she don’t exist She didn’t know I’d be waiting for her So i went to my house These transgressions of then Think of your friends, family These transgressions of jen Think of your friends and family descend into cliche Don’t you know I’m not strong? Don’t you know I’m not kind? Don’t you know what I’m like? We’ve lived With these transgressions I wonder if you went to me Because I’m gullible-- Don’t you know I’m not strong? Don’t you know I’m not kind? I’m sorry But it’s for the best I’d understand If you never wanna talk to me again Then you resent me for the rest of our short, short lives I wish i was a girl who had you i wish i was dead

Ghost in your arms Ghost in your head Home in your arms Home when I’m dead And this is why I have decided To stop all my hiding And leave your thoughts all clean and nice, and Run from any thoughts about it And stop thinking about him thinking about him, yeah I get it I get everything You don’t need this You don’t need me Oh, I told you I loved you Outside my mom’s house I know that you felt bad So I’ll tell you to get out I get it I get everything I made you french toast You said you didn’t feel quite as alone We smoked in the forest No one around for miles You and your flaunting nonexistent idols The highways still hummed Even though we were alone out there Your face in the night was a plume and flashbang light I watched the smoke billow through the dim of the flashlight’s right You said to me “Is this all it’ll ever be?” I heard you but did not speak (in response) So we ask, do all dogs go to heaven? “Not all of them” You spoke to me in quiet words I watched you get dressed Let me do my job Let me do Let me do my job We slept on the ground We slept with fire and stars all around And we’re all going straight to hell For all the shit we give ourselves I don’t know what you want me to say He doesn’t love me And that’s just the way it is Well hey? Would it be so bad if I stayed Well, what happened to you? when i was listening to this song i just had kade telling me 'you usually don't shout this early in the morning' because he took the vacuum cleaner and used it for five minutes he didn't even put the cord back in he said 'i'll do it later and better' and i thought you always think that you always think that you always think that later i was curled up in a ball reading all the lyrics to a rock song with 5000 views thinking 'how come i always read the comments moments people don't interest me?' actually they never do and i always think that i always think that i always think that Well what happened to you? later i was standing in the room and i could feel the air around me now i'm butting the cigarette on the chair i'm just living somewhere hell there is nothing to do my guitar is two stories away and the stairs are way too hard i can never decide do i walk or run on them because they might hear and they might think that they might think that they might think that Well what happened to you? When you come back i’ll still be here When you come back i’ll still be here ([spoken:] Man I've gotta get out of my hometown. Too many bad memories. It won't be easy. You'll think it strange when I try to explain how I feel; that I still need your love after all that I've done. You won't believe me. All you will see is a girl you once knew. Although she's dressed up and desperate, drunk. I had to let it happen. I had to change. Couldn't stay all my life down at heel, looking out of the window, staying out of the sun. So I chose freedom. Running around trying everything new. But nothing impressed me at all. I never expected it to. And as for fortune, and as for fame, I never invited them in. Though it seemed to the world they were all I desired. They are illusions. They're not the solutions that they promise to be. The answer was here all along. I love you and hope you love me. Have I said too much? There's nothing else I can think of to say. But all you have to do is look at me to know that every word is true. “So pour one out, whoever you are. I have only lyrics now.”)